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74 entries in the journal

October 2026

23 entries
DayMon, Oct 2636 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 31 pages read · 49 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the dayMonday, October 26, 2026
DaySun, Oct 2531 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 6 pages read · 12 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the daySunday, October 25, 2026
DaySat, Oct 2422 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 19 pages read · 30 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the daySaturday, October 24, 2026
DayFri, Oct 2336 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 12 pages read · 18 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the dayFriday, October 23, 2026
DayThu, Oct 2234 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 5 pages read · 8 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the dayThursday, October 22, 2026
DayTue, Oct 2032 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 27 pages read · 47 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the dayTuesday, October 20, 2026
DayMon, Oct 1930 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 11 pages read · 18 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the dayMonday, October 19, 2026
DaySun, Oct 1842 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 58 pages read · 98 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the daySunday, October 18, 2026
DaySat, Oct 1736 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 25 pages read · 41 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the daySaturday, October 17, 2026
DayFri, Oct 1631 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 15 pages read · 24 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the dayFriday, October 16, 2026
DayThu, Oct 1522 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 13 pages read · 22 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the dayThursday, October 15, 2026
DayTue, Oct 1336 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 12 pages read · 18 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the dayTuesday, October 13, 2026
DayMon, Oct 1234 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 5 pages read · 8 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the dayMonday, October 12, 2026
DaySun, Oct 1132 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 36 pages read · 59 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the daySunday, October 11, 2026
DaySat, Oct 1030 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 5 pages read · 10 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the daySaturday, October 10, 2026
DayFri, Oct 942 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 52 pages read · 90 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the dayFriday, October 9, 2026
DayThu, Oct 836 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 34 pages read · 53 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the dayThursday, October 8, 2026
DayTue, Oct 631 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 15 pages read · 24 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the dayTuesday, October 6, 2026
DayMon, Oct 522 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 13 pages read · 22 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the dayMonday, October 5, 2026
DaySun, Oct 436 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 6 pages read · 10 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the daySunday, October 4, 2026
DaySat, Oct 334 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 14 pages read · 20 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the daySaturday, October 3, 2026
DayFri, Oct 232 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 30 pages read · 51 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the dayFriday, October 2, 2026
DayThu, Oct 130 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 14 pages read · 22 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the dayThursday, October 1, 2026

September 2026

25 entries
DayTue, Sep 2942 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 52 pages read · 90 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the dayTuesday, September 29, 2026
DayMon, Sep 2836 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 34 pages read · 53 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the dayMonday, September 28, 2026
DaySun, Sep 2731 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 9 pages read · 16 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the daySunday, September 27, 2026
DaySat, Sep 2622 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 22 pages read · 34 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the daySaturday, September 26, 2026
DayFri, Sep 2536 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 2 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the dayFriday, September 25, 2026
DayThu, Sep 2434 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 8 pages read · 12 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the dayThursday, September 24, 2026
DayTue, Sep 2232 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 30 pages read · 51 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the dayTuesday, September 22, 2026
DayMon, Sep 2130 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 14 pages read · 22 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the dayMonday, September 21, 2026
DaySun, Sep 2042 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 46 pages read · 82 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the daySunday, September 20, 2026
DaySat, Sep 1936 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 28 pages read · 45 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the daySaturday, September 19, 2026
DayFri, Sep 1831 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 18 pages read · 28 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the dayFriday, September 18, 2026
DayThu, Sep 1722 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 16 pages read · 26 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the dayThursday, September 17, 2026
DayTue, Sep 1536 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 2 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the dayTuesday, September 15, 2026
DayMon, Sep 1434 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 8 pages read · 12 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the dayMonday, September 14, 2026
DaySun, Sep 1332 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 39 pages read · 63 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the daySunday, September 13, 2026
DaySat, Sep 1230 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 8 pages read · 14 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the daySaturday, September 12, 2026
DayFri, Sep 1142 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 55 pages read · 94 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the dayFriday, September 11, 2026
DayThu, Sep 1036 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 22 pages read · 37 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the dayThursday, September 10, 2026
DayTue, Sep 831 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 18 pages read · 28 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the dayTuesday, September 8, 2026
DayMon, Sep 722 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 16 pages read · 26 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the dayMonday, September 7, 2026
DaySun, Sep 636 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 9 pages read · 14 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the daySunday, September 6, 2026
DaySat, Sep 534 words · 1 min

Dinner with R

❦ Tender · The corner place · 2 pages read · 4 min reading

We talked for three hours and I came home with that specific tiredness that only comes from good company. Read four pages and gave up happily. Warm I should ask people out more often.
Open the daySaturday, September 5, 2026
DayFri, Sep 432 words · 1 min

Study morning, quiet afternoon

◐ Steady · Home · 33 pages read · 55 min reading

Two hours on eigenvalues before the day started asking for anything. Slow, but it went in. The afternoon was mostly reading in the good chair. Absorbed Difficult things only yield to repetition.
Open the dayFriday, September 4, 2026
DayThu, Sep 330 words · 1 min

Restless, too many tabs

≋ Restless · Home · 17 pages read · 26 min reading

The kind of day where I did a lot and finished nothing. Noticed it around four and went for a walk instead of pushing. Itchy Attention is the whole game.
Open the dayThursday, September 3, 2026
DayTue, Sep 142 words · 1 min

A whole Saturday with nothing in it

☀ Bright · Home and market · 55 pages read · 94 min reading

Market in the morning, a long lunch, and the rest of the day reading on the floor by the window. The best kind of day and the hardest to plan for. Content An empty day is a thing you have to defend.
Open the dayTuesday, September 1, 2026

August 2026

7 entries
DayMon, Aug 3136 words · 1 min

One long clean stretch of work

☀ Bright · Home · 22 pages read · 37 min reading

Blocked the morning off and nobody noticed, which is the whole trick. Got further into the migration than I expected and stopped while it was still going well. Capable Stopping early is what makes tomorrow easy.
Open the dayMonday, August 31, 2026
DaySun, Aug 3031 words · 1 min

Errands, then a soft evening

◐ Steady · Around town · 12 pages read · 20 min reading

Half the day went to the bank and the pharmacy. I've stopped resenting these days — something has to hold the rest together. Neutral, fine Maintenance is a kind of care.
Open the daySunday, August 30, 2026
DaySat, Aug 2922 words · 1 min

Swim, then everything felt easier

☀ Bright · Pool and home · 25 pages read · 38 min reading

Twenty-five lengths and the whole day rearranged itself around it. I always forget and then I remember. Light The body votes first.
Open the daySaturday, August 29, 2026
DayFri, Aug 2836 words · 1 min

Flat and foggy

☁ Foggy · Home · 3 pages read · 6 min reading

Slept badly and spent the day a step behind myself. Did the small things and let the big ones wait. Not every day has to earn its keep. Blunted Tired is not the same as failing.
Open the dayFriday, August 28, 2026
MarginTue, Aug 1818 words · 1 min

The Overstory

Richard Powers · ★★★★★

A book of patient, rooted chapters. I read a little each morning before the day starts making noise.
Open the bookTuesday, August 18, 2026
MarginSun, Aug 914 words · 1 min

A Field Guide to Grief

Noor Haddad

“Grief is just love with nowhere to go.”
Reading it slowly, mostly on trains. Not a book to finish in a weekend.
Open the bookSunday, August 9, 2026
MarginSun, Aug 227 words · 1 min

Dune

Frank Herbert

I keep returning to the desert. Page 312 of 512, and the politics of Arrakis are starting to feel like weather — invisible until it reshapes everything.
Open the bookSunday, August 2, 2026

July 2026

2 entries
MarginTue, Jul 2118 words · 1 min

The Quiet Hours

Elena Marsh · ★★★★☆

“Patience is only attention that refuses to hurry.”
One essay a morning. It's the only book I've managed to read at the same time every day.
Open the bookTuesday, July 21, 2026
MarginThu, Jul 917 words · 1 min

Annihilation

Jeff VanderMeer · ★★★☆☆

Unsettling in a way I admired more than enjoyed. The tower stayed with me for a week.
Open the bookThursday, July 9, 2026

June 2026

1 entry
MarginThu, Jun 1817 words · 1 min

Piranesi

Susanna Clarke · ★★★★★

“The Beauty of the House is immeasurable; its Kindness infinite.”
Finished it and immediately went back to the first twenty pages to see how it was done.
Open the bookThursday, June 18, 2026

May 2026

1 entry
MarginTue, May 1915 words · 1 min

The Vanishing Half

Brit Bennett · ★★★★☆

“You can escape a town, but you cannot escape blood.”
Read most of it in three long sittings. The structure does the emotional work quietly.
Open the bookTuesday, May 19, 2026

March 2026

2 entries
MarginSat, Mar 1424 words · 1 min

Educated

Tara Westover · ★★★★★

“You can love someone and still choose to say goodbye to them.”
The whole second half turned on one sentence I underlined twice. I read it aloud to no one and felt the room get smaller.
Open the bookSaturday, March 14, 2026
MarginMon, Mar 229 words · 1 min

Braiding Sweetgrass

Robin Wall Kimmerer · ★★★★☆

“All flourishing is mutual.”
Not the book I expected. It reads like a field note, not a sermon. I finished it on a walk and it stayed with me the whole way home.
Open the bookMonday, March 2, 2026

January 1970

2 entries
PageThu, Jan 122:40⌂ Home89 words · 1 min

The quiet kind of tired

Home · Clear, cooling · Quietly settled

The flat is dark except for the lamp. I meant to write earlier but the day had its own shape and I let it. Cooked the lentils properly this time — low heat, no stirring, the way Ma does — and they came out right. Read two essays after. Nothing urgent. I keep noticing how rare it is to have a day that asks nothing of me, and how I never know what to do with it when it comes. So I did the small things slowly, on purpose.
Open in the diaryThursday, January 1, 1970
DayThu, Jan 196 words · 1 min

A slow start that turned into a good day

◐ Steady · Home · 18 pages read · 35 min reading

“Patience is only attention that refuses to hurry.”
Woke before the alarm and let the morning stay quiet for a while. Work was mostly one long stretch on the same problem, which is the kind of day I like — no switching, just one thing getting slowly less confusing. Walked to the market in the afternoon and cooked properly for the first time this week. Ended with an essay and the window open. Calm, a little tired behind the eyes. The good kind of tired — like the day used me rather than the other way around. The day used me well, for once.
Open the dayThursday, January 1, 1970

December 1969

10 entries
DayWed, Dec 3174 words · 1 min

Too many small things

≋ Restless · Around town · 41 pages read · 62 min reading

One of those days made entirely of fragments — calls, replies, errands. Nothing went wrong, but nothing added up either. Stayed up too late reading Dune to get back some of the day for myself, which is a bad trade I keep making. Scattered. I could feel myself reaching for my phone every few minutes, which is usually the tell that I'm avoiding something. I keep trading sleep for a sense of the day.
Open the dayWednesday, December 31, 1969
PageTue, Dec 3001:10✚ Health73 words · 1 min

Up too late again

Riverside · Warm night · Restless but softer than usual

Same trade as always — sleep for a few hours that feel like my own. The city was very quiet at midnight, the kind of quiet you only get in August when people have left. I walked to the river and back without my phone, which is something I should do more often. Came home and read until I couldn't focus on the lines. Tomorrow I want to start the morning without it.
Open in the diaryTuesday, December 30, 1969
DayMon, Dec 2957 words · 1 min

Rain, a train, and a short chapter

❦ Tender · Train, window seat · 14 pages read · 22 min reading

“Grief is just love with nowhere to go.”
Travelled most of the day. Trains are the only place I read properly anymore. Got in late, didn't cook, went straight to bed — but the day felt gentle rather than wasted. Quiet and a bit sentimental. Grief writing on a commute is a strange choice but it landed softly. Some days are just for passing through.
Open the dayMonday, December 29, 1969
PageSat, Dec 2709:20◔ Personal70 words · 1 min

Market morning

Saturday market · Bright, mild

Got there early enough that the stalls were still being set up. The tomato man gave me the good ones because nobody else was buying yet. Took the long way home. I think the reason I like markets is that nothing there is trying to be anything — it's just food, and people, and money, and the morning. I should write here more. The day feels different when I do.
Open in the diarySaturday, December 27, 1969
PageWed, Dec 2421:05▤ Work59 words · 1 min

The migration finally moved

Desk · Grey all day · Relieved, slightly hollow

Three weeks of it sitting half-done and today it just went. Nothing clever happened — I only stopped trying to solve the whole thing and did one table at a time. I keep learning this and keep forgetting it. Wrote the handover notes while it was fresh, which is the part I usually skip and then regret in November.
Open in the diaryWednesday, December 24, 1969
PageSun, Dec 2119:45₹ Money57 words · 1 min

Money, honestly

Kitchen table · Cool · Sober but steady

Sat down with the ledger properly for the first time in months. It isn't as bad as the vague dread suggested — it never is, that's the whole point of the dread. Groceries are the honest number; the small ones add up faster than I'd admit. Moved two thousand into the bookshelf fund and left it alone.
Open in the diarySunday, December 21, 1969
PageThu, Dec 1808:15✎ Learning46 words · 1 min

Eigenvalues, slowly

Home · Early sun · Stubborn

Two hours before the day started. The first hour was pure resistance and the second one was fine, which seems to be the rate. I don't need to be quick at this. I only need to keep turning up on the mornings I said I would.
Open in the diaryThursday, December 18, 1969
PageSun, Dec 1423:30◍ Social52 words · 1 min

Long dinner, longer walk home

The corner place · Warm, still · Full, in the good sense

Six of us, one table, and nobody looked at a phone until the bill came. R told the story about the boat again and it was better this time. Walked home the long way through the park because the night was warm and I wasn't ready for the day to be over.
Open in the diarySunday, December 14, 1969
PageTue, Dec 907:40✚ Health35 words · 1 min

Back in the water

Pool · Bright, cold air · Awake

First swim in a fortnight. Twenty-five lengths, badly, and then the whole day felt like it belonged to me. It's absurd how reliable this is and how completely I forget it every time I stop.
Open in the diaryTuesday, December 9, 1969
PageWed, Dec 320:20⌂ Home54 words · 1 min

Rearranged the shelves

Home · Rain, all evening · Quietly pleased

Took everything off and put it back by when I read it rather than by author. Now the shelf reads like a timeline and I can see the years where I read almost nothing. Kept four books I'll never open again purely because of who gave them to me, which is a fine reason.
Open in the diaryWednesday, December 3, 1969

November 1969

1 entry
PageWed, Nov 2618:50◔ Personal45 words · 1 min

A week that got away

Home · Muggy · Vague, a little frustrated

Nothing bad happened and I can't account for a single day of it. That's the version I want to catch earlier next time — not the hard weeks, the blurred ones. Writing it down is apparently the only thing that stops a week from evaporating.
Open in the diaryWednesday, November 26, 1969

Longest page so far: A slow start that turned into a good day, 96 words on Thursday, January 1, 1970. Not sure what to write next? Journal ideas has prompts.